Wednesday, February 11, 2015

solo warrior

and I am definitely more happening on Instagram (@passionade).
HORRORS. I know I took a super long hiatus from blogging
but I swear I really didn't have the time to sit down
and churn out a decent blog post.
(i didn't even have time to watch Masterchef, but that's totally not the point)
But now, here is my side of the story.

If you were expecting some juicy fallout between me and Sharms,
and an ugly split blah blah...
nah, sorry. Not that exciting.
The thing is, she has moved on to other things that are more important to her
at her current stage in life now,
and it was all done with well wishes.
I can't say I was not upset,
but not in the "i-am-gonna-stab-you-with-a-blunt-fork" way.
It could have been lurking around in the background for a while,
but yup, still shocking when she told me about it :(

So I have been fighting a solo battle since Nov when she told me
and then making hasty plans to keep the business going
while trying to figure what I want to do with it.
A change is definitely in store,
I really hope it is for the better
and I am praying for all the love and support to tide me through this year.
I have tons of plans for 2015,
both for myself, my family and MP
and some of them are conflicting so...
not too sure how the next half of the year is going to unfold.
And I seriously hate not knowing.

And also because this post is super belated, you get some pics from..

I told YC recently that I am like one of those deluded mums
who think their kids are the cutest beings around.
Cos I keep spamming my poor friends with pics of Buns
cos I find him adorable seems like only me and YC think so.
I promise I won't do this when I have my own kid.
(but seriously, how can you not love this ball of fur??!!)

and this is Hazel doing what she does best - chewing. on. anything.
she actually ate some glitter thingamy off the xmas tree.
I found gold glitter on her bunny lips. Sighs.

and my Christmas flatlay! Super proud cos I had fresh flowers for my party.
That is like one of the most domesticated thing I did last year. HA.

speaking of Christmas party, loooookkk!!
we even decorated the table.
(okay, lynn decorated the table. the rest of us were just poking around)

I didn't have a lot of ootds the past month(s) but I picked the few i liked!

my love for denim shirts came late.
But now i agree they are really pretty versatile.

i like stripes. With red. or with anything actually.

my caption for this pic was...
"twirling for ootd is the only cardio i do these days"
and the sad thing is.. I am not even kidding.
I stopped gym for half a year cos I had super bad lower back pain
aggravated by work and such, then following that,
I injured the inner part of my knee
(the doctor was baffled cos he says usually people injured the outer part
and I was too embarrassed to tell him it happened when I was bending down to switch off the TV
and something went pop and then, I also somehow managed to walk into my own fan. Hmmm)
so the only thing I could do was to swim.
And the nearest swimming complex isn't really that near.
So long story short, I have been very unfit.

and this is a happy outfit for a happy day
cos that was the day we booked our flights to Europe! YAY.

So traumatizing. I don't know how people do it.
I am so un-photogenic it takes forever to get one good pic of myself.
(and then I go back and look at my old MP studio pics and

that was also the day we went to a friend's dinner party
and she did the prettiest cold cuts & cheese platter.
Wow. If it was me, it will look nothing like this. HAHA.

A CNY flatlay from MP feat. MIA floral dress in black.
I am keeping the white for myself though and unlike past years,
this is the only year I have yet to plan the rest of my outfits.
Sighs. Am I too old to wear a tulle skirt? Cos I super duper love my tulle skirt.

one of my fav pics of Buns&Hazel cos I think this pic totally encapsulates their r/s.
Buns is forever the one giving in, being all protective of her, grooming her
and then, waiting with a super hopeful face to see if she would groom him back.
And he adores her so much everytime Hazel goes to lie down beside a wall,
he will squeeze himself between her and the wall so he can be all squashed up with her.
That's one happy bunny. And one not so impressed bunny. Haha.

anddddd the reason why I am finally able to blog.
I crashed YC's business meeting in Phuket and now he is out BBQ-ing with the team
while I just went to gym (WOW, FINALLY) and ended up blogging in bed.
I like life this way. Heh.

Okay, abrupt stop cos I am suddenly hungry
and am going to order room service.
On his tab.
-inserts big toothy grin emoticon-

much love,

Friday, November 28, 2014


its been seven years.

seven since we embarked on this as good ol' uni kids in the hope of earning spare cash. days and nights spent jewellery making before venturing into the business of apparel. headless shots by void decks, lugging stocks on trains, camping outside suppliers' stalls for first dibs, endless hours spent invoicing every single order (oh those livejournal days), late night stamp-buying and mail runs, the likes. after we graduated i spent a good (almost) two years dabbling in PR until i couldn't take the stress no longer, having to juggle two jobs. i was spent and decided to give this a shot.

and here i am now, deciding that i'm done.

its been a helluva ride. i wouldn't trade these seven years for anything else - the ups, the downs, the good, the bad, the ugly. and i wouldn't have chosen anyone else to have gone into this venture with.
so thank you for being the best partner you could have been.
and for understanding my decision no matter how much you hated it. 

"i could have held your hand for a longer time, but i could not have held it forever."

its hard to put every single thing we've done, learnt and felt together in these years into a blogpost, much less a paragraph or sentence. its even harder to pen down the rush of emotions and jumbled-up thoughts as they hit me in erratic waves. just know that i carry these years in my heart, and that i'm glad to have found such a steadfast friend in you.

so this is it - my last post on this domain.

going forward, i'll be helping the hubs in his own venture, and being the best mum i can to baby Z.
please continue to support MP and the solo warrior behind her. go, you!

til then, i'll see you all on the other side.
good luck, and good bye :') 

full-time mother, part-time everything else.

Thursday, November 20, 2014

oh. hello there.

Oh. Hello.
Why, this is awkward.
Coming back to blog is like meeting a very close friend.
That I have ignored for months.
Yes, kinda like that.
There are somedays where I feel like I am going to blog,
but then I log in and... I log out.
Cos I feel whatever I am going to say is just not that interesting.

The good thing is.. I have TONS of backlog photos from my Seoul trips,
ootds, (i will spare you the bunnies selfies)and some food shots here and there.
The bad news is... you are going to be looking at them. HAHA.

In no particular order, these are some of the kgs I have consumed over the months.
I am not really going to blog about my Seoul itinerary cos it is embarrassing.
I did nothing touristy but to eat and shop for skincare & makeup.
I didn't even go up Namsan with YC. Oops.
That said, here are some of my MUST-EATs when you are in seoul.

1. Bingsu
There is Sulbing (also know as Korean dessert cafe)
I realised why people might have difficulties looking for this cos the signboard is in Hangul.
And the both times I was there, either Lynn read it, or I read it.
So it looks perfectly fine to me.
Til I realised if you don't know Hangul, you would never know what it is. Haha.

So Sulbing's snow ice is really really fine.
You can blow on it and it goes everywhere.
And they do a layered kind of flavour where the ice on top is bland,
but when you get to the end, it gets better.
The thing is, as wonderful and famous Sulbing is, it is not my kinda of bingsu.
I like it. But I don't love it :(
The one you see here is cheesecake flavoured and if you love cheese, order it.
If not, a fruit one would be much lighter.
You can find Sulbing pretty much everywhere, it is like the MacDonalds of bingsu.

And then...there is Dalsuda. (yep, all in Hangul again so google it)
Dalsuda's ice is flavoured through out (i had green tea this time and it was DA BOMB)
and the ice is slightly denser. But totally melt in the mouth.
Plus I love its injeolmi toast more than other injeolmi toast.
Injeolmi toast is basically toast with a layer of tteok (rice cake) sandwiched in between,
grilled so it is all nice and chewy,
then flavoured with whatever flavour they have, plus a dusting of injeolmi (mixed bean) powder.
Dalsuda's toast wins hands down cos the tteok is thicker
and you can actually see it when you take a bite out of it.
Like a pizza. A Korean toast pizza.
The very sad thing is Dalsuda can only be found in Hongdae
and I didn't stay at Hongdae this time so I only had it once. Sighs.

I also had random bingsu where ever I went,
this was at Sinchon I think?
Basically, I googled bingsu + area I am at
and go where Google tells me to.
I am very obedient.

I went to Seoul and came back 2kg heavier. Like the heaviest I have ever been.
Largely cos I had BBQ daily, ramen nightly and sweets in between.
All the time.

The famed Honeycomb soft serve.
honestly? I am not much of a milk person so this was tad too milky.
But YC has a sweet tooth and loved it.
Then again, I think he loved everything...

thunderbomb from Remicone at Garogusil.
Very very insta-worthy. I don't normally like cotton candy
but this was absolutely fun to eat :)

I thought it was soft serve but turns out it was froyo!
It made me feel...slightly healthier.
Very slightly.

this is churros from Coffee Chu but I personally think it is still a bit too doughy.
My fav churros are from a street stall in Hongdae -
if you can find your way to Tony Moly,
facing it, enter the street on the right of it,
walk down and on your left, there should be a stall that sells churros with a yellow pull-up banner.
It is beside a chicken skewer stall.
The churros there are made on the spot so they are all light and crispy
and YUMS.
Get two. You won't regret it.

And next comes the series of... #fromwhereistandandthefoodiate

birthday brunch for YC's friend's baby girl! So different from usual birthday parties :)

we had brunch at Cafe Able at Garosugil where everything was really fresh
and they had really huge bunches of celery as garnish for the drinks.
I couldn't help but wonder why I don't see such nice leafy celery in SG.
I know, I wonder about very strange things. Sighs.

Palsaik. 8-flavoured pork belly.
I know you can get it in SG but it is so so so much cheaper in Seoul.
I go to the one at Sinchon!
Google 'Sinchon Palsaik', there are loads of directions, complete with pics.

A must-have! My fav Migabon porridge at Myeongdong :)

And now we are done with the food, let's bring on the clothes.
It goes something like..

my outfit for the birthday party!
The theme was blue or white.
I decided to cover all bases. Haha.

Seoul Day 2. A bright clear day after a cold gloomy one.
Dressed in PIPPA black from MP and training YC to be a good ootd photog.

Seoul Day 3 - spent the day being obviously non-Korean
cos it turns out no sane Korean would wear summers colours in fall.
Fashion faux pas - Seoul style. :(
Still training YC.

Seoul Day 5 - have given up on ootds cos I couldn't pose properly.
How about an accessories shot?
Bag & loafers from MP. I am very loyal as you can see.

Post Seoul week - DYING to wear the parka I bought
but afraid people might snigger at me
(mostly my own husband actually)

Post Seoul - lack of ootd inspiration starting.
Dreaming of beautiful stylish Seoul peeps.
Looking forlornly at wardrobe and hating it.
Decided to pay some tribute to fall fashion and wear some tartan.

Post Seoul - wore my Seoul top and the wally colours make me happy.
Start of a long long ootd drought.

It was Friday and I wanted to dress up a bit
so I picked this old chiffon palazzo pants and top combi.

yet another Friday so went back to old favs - stripes anyone?

still no inspiration so did a pink flatlay with some new shoes.
It is mad comfyyyyyy.
and I never knew I had that many pink stuff.

my latest ootd and I am still not feeling it.
On a sidenote, those shoes are LOVE.
You know somedays you wake up knowing what you are going to wear
and it sometimes goes on for days so every morning you are just so inspired
til you start to 'save' outfits?
Well, I haven't had one of those moments in a long while
and I am running back to my old basics and tried&tested combis.
This means a very boring Kelly.

On a more serious note, my emotions have been going through
some major ups&downs this past month cos of some news.
(ahhh, nope, there is no bun in this oven)
Somedays, I feel like I can take on the world.
Somedays, I feel like the bed and my blankie is the best place to be.
I don't wanna say much now but I am really thankful for all the love and support.
And when you read this.. I don't blame you ok?
I really really understand and no hard feelings.

Lastly, cannot resist.

"Whatcha lookin' at? You lookin' at me? Hmmmmm? I won't know...cos I can't see you anyway."

much love,

Thursday, September 25, 2014

you don't wear my chains;

we're funny people. when we don't blog, we don't blog for a long time. and when we have the urge (or the time, in my case) to blog, we both blog within the week, haha.

im sure i've become much less interesting to follow anyway - 

no #OOTDs:  i still have 6 more kg to lose and my bottoms, 50% of which i can now squeeze into, are still goddamn tight. i can't fit into most tops due to my expanded bosom, and bodycon dresses now look simply ridiculous on my postpartum body.

no pretty #brunch pics: every meal out is a "lets eat as fast as we can before the little one wakes up". either that, or the hubs and me takes turns to pacify baby Z and there's always only one of us at the dinner table.. still eating as fast as we can so the other one can eat.
that said, i am proud to say that i have mastered the art of eating with one hand while holding a sleeping baby in another.

no #homecooked pics: there is simply no time for me to play in the kitchen anymore. any free time is spent catching up with my pump sessions / taking a nice 15min bath / gobbling my meal... or taking a nap, which sounds great but is actually not because in the end im always interrupted by Z, who cries every now and then in his cradle, eyes closed, and just wants someone to be there before he gets back to sleep. i get so frustrated by this that i don't do naps anymore. sigh. 

have i scared you all off having a kid yet? i hope not.

i wonder how many readers are actually mothers or mums-to-be? i feel like im blogging about non-relatable stuff but sadly.. i have dived into this motherhood thing and there's nothing else in my life to talk about but just that. its like i have totally lost myself as an individual - im reading mummy forums all the time, looking and comparing prices for babyware, buying and trying products to increase my milk supply (ugggh), thinking about how i should be decorating his room... 
any mums feel the same way?!

that said, i can't believe three months have zoomed by just like that. Z has grown so much in this span of time i'm already missing him as a newborn. oh the irony.

he's turning four months old in a week's time!
as one friend pointed out - with a kid, 'the days are long but the years are short'. feelin' it already.

every baby has to have a naked bathtub photo. or a collage, in this case.

pics of Z on various chairs!

and his greatest achievement to date - holding his own bottle!
which was cute but not anymore since now he battles with me for it -.-

i apologise for the babypic spam but that's all i have in my phone for now.
don't grow up too fast, you?

ok gotta end this abruptly now 'cos he's awoken.
back to being a full-time baby rocker and human pacifier, bye!


Wednesday, September 24, 2014

the longest hiatus

I know, I know.
I have not blogged in such a long time, it is not even funny.
I thought I would have a more regular blogging schedule post Seoul in July but..
hmmm, I wonder what happened. Haha.
The thing is, nothing much exciting has been happening so far
so there is simply nothing to update :(
And my ootd frequencies are so random, it does not warrant a blog post itself weekly.

On the bright side... I am heading back to Seoul AGAIN next week!
I know it sounds a bit mad but YC had miles to redeem
and I went there twice without him but I really wanted him to enjoy that city as well,
so yup, there I am, going back again :)
As a joke, I have been telling people that it is because I have yet to complete all my surgeries.
I wonder how many really believed me. MUAHAHAHA.

I have been looking back at my previous albums the last 2/3 years,
and am suffering from post-second hand embarrassment from the outfits I used to wear. Haha.
And that, OMG, I had such gloriously long hair.
Gahhh, miss the hair. But not missing the lack of double eyelids. Hur.
And also wondering, how did I make the effort to put on falsies daily then.
Youth, indeed.

Let's see what I have been up to for the past 2 months.

this was my first OOTD when I came back cos I was still very much inspired by Seoul
and their penchant for loose tees and clean lines.

it could just be me but I don't recall seeing them wear a lot of colours
so I was stuck in mono-land for a while.

i also had some serious cravings for churros
(which they sell on the streets there but gah, you can't find that here)
It tastes different as well? SG ones are more doughy and I like mine crispy and light.
Can't wait for my Hongdae churros.

i like that this daisy cropped top doesn't fit snugly at the bottom
so there is more allowance for a belly that day. Haha.
And I took forever to adjust my gold ribbon hair tie that day so you can see it!

wearing another of my Seoul shirts. With my all-time fav high waist shorts.
Did I mention I got it in black as well?

In my deluded world, I like this high neck cutting for tops cos it shows off the shoulders
and I like to think that is the the nicest part of my body. Haha.

Loose shirts! I am not kidding when I say I have a collection of shirts,
loose, fitted, printed, striped, chambray and 10 over versions of white shirts.
And cos white shirts don't stay white for long, I just keep buying new ones to replace them.
I am officially known as white shirts girl in MP.
And stripes girl as well.

bought 2 outta 3 colours for our basic ribbed crop top cos it is so versatile.
And tried pairing rust with something other than black or white. Worked out pretty fine, no?

we released this comfy knit top in a myriad of colours over at the site already,
so just go pick one cos it is sooooo easy to wear, haha.
Paired my wine one with chambray cos I am guilty of doing wine and navy too often.

tadaaaaaa, the other ribbed top in white :)
And I permed the ends of my hair cos post Korea hair fiasco last year,
I ended up with super stick straight hair after chopping off my perm
and I hate it :(
Now i still tong it for more shape but it takes way faster
and it is making me change my outfits for some weird reason.
I keep wanting to wear quirky, vintage-y stuff like full skirts,
polka dots, printed shift dresses...

super attracted to this print on this skirt and just found out it is a Topshop print.
I is haz good taste. Haha.
And of cos, our WILLOW 'J'adore' mini bag in black.
Everyone needs a small black bag, trust me.
I am the queen of tiny bags. Haha.

and feeling exceptionally ruffled that day with this outfit.
My hair is making me do strange things. I am dressing up with themes. GAH.

lastly, cos no post is complete with this sweetheart,
here is an exceptionally handsome pic of Buns :)))
He is not very photogenic (sadly) so it is hard to get good photos of him
but look at his grumpy face here!
Wanna smoosh him into bits. Haha.

or you could have a curled up fatty bunny here too. Heh.

So that pretty much sums up my 2 months worth of outfits and now back to Seoul.
I actually wanted to try out all my products so I can see if there are any I need to restock
but obviously didn't succeed much there, except for this one below!

I am going to cart back dozens of this miracle little pot.
Innisfree Fresh Topping Pack - creamy base.
It was recommended by Lynnie, who said it was wonderful but I was mildly skeptical
cos she said most things were wonderful everywhere in Seoul anyway.
So she actually wanted the clay mask version which is super popular
and totally OOS when we went to Innisfree so we settled for this cream base version.
Basically, you choose a base and then powder/oil satchels of your preferred 'condiment'
(for the lack of a better word)
So I picked green tea (cos its hydrating and I love how it smells)
and Tangerine (cos the SA said it brightens our skin and both Lynn and me agree that as this age,
we need all the brightening we can get)
I posted a video of this on my Instagram (@passionade)
which showed me mixing together them all together to form a gooey mess
but it smelled like green tea and it was SO GOOD.
I did it immediately post-video and when I washed it off,
my pores got smaller, my skin was smooth and silky and WAAAAHHHHH.
I texted Lynnie to tell her yes, she was absolutely right. This thing is wonderful. :))))
The downside is, you can only get it at Innisfree Jeju stores
and I think the only one in Seoul is at Samcheongdong
and that once you open and mix this pot, you have to use it in 7 days.
I pretty much used it daily and I still couldn't really finish it
so you gotta either slather it on real thick, or share.
I tried asking YC if he wanted it but he just took a look at my green face and laughed.
Oh wells.

much love,